There are many phrases that just fuck with my mood but I am going to focus on one.... "You're not being yourself right now..." Usually the phrase comes about after having an emotional break on someone. Usually this someone is someone who doesnt know you too well and has only seen the first-dimension to your being. You're not being you! When I hear this, the first thing to come into my mind is SHUT THE FUCK UP! It pisses me off. It's like saying your reaction to certain things and other emotional senses of you do not exist. It's like expecting someone to be totally happy or the same one-dimension you see on a regular basis ON A REGULAR BASIS. That is just plain... stupid. Do you really believe that I'm a flat table surface with no level of depth? Do you really expect me not to show you the bad side of me along with the good? Are you that utopian??? Okay, so a little background...where this blog came from?? Right now, the movie Spanglish. As of before, my current boyfriend thinking that I "changed." Right... Just cause my actions may have swerved to depend more on time and place instead of impulse does NOT mean I've changed. The same person I was at 12, I am at 19(almost 19). Difference: more experiences and a little wiser...not all that much. Everytime there's an argument or a reaction that he hasn't seen in a while, there goes the infamous piss-me-off-some-more line... "You're not being you..." Like nigga, shut the fuck up. You should know by now, how I'm going to react to certain situations. You have seen me upset before, you should know what are some of my pet peeves by now. It's going to be five months soon and you don't know....geez, that's a problem. What ignited this blog?
Spanglish..... Adam Sandler telling "Deb" she's not being HERself. Like in marriage, there's not much hidden, supposing there has already been the time spent in which you got to know one another and supposing you've known each other an extended amount of time. It's not fair to my boyfriend considering we only really known each other almost 5 months but there are certain things that one should know already. God, the patience I have and in the words of Starr "YOU NICE..." So I shall continue this later for my anger has subsided. But yes, if you have gotten the gist of this blog... do NOT ever say that bullshyt line to me... It's like spitting fire at me... and you'll only get doused. (For whoever is that slow and they dont know what I mean... I'm a pisces. Water vs. Fire. Water wins...) PEACE... NO no no wait. I'm not feeling peaceful so 2CES!
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