U'll only love me, when it's too late to say it.and now
Ur walking into a danger zone.
You've yet to know who I am or who I was and yet you still push me to the limits beyond those you've yet to reach.
Do u know what you're doing yet?
Or are u playing it by ear?
Do you not understand the ones who know me well dont know me well enough?
And those same people cannot really express to you what it is your getting into because even to them I am risk beyond knowledge.
So come down the hall take a right and make a left let me know how your visit was.
Dont leave without letting me know.
Its only been a few months that Im realizing my cruelty the more I'm pushed the more I learn.
Maybe you don't want to know that part of me.
But regardless you're still pushing.
My buttons aren't hard to find its my patience that lets you in for a ride.
And that ride could be through plain hell or a marvelous time.
It's up to you.
Are you done yet?
Do you get me now?
Do you still not know the endings to my fury?
I've done a lot of shyt in my life, things that most people dont know or need to know.
But you will be one to learn it sooner or later if you continue on this road.
This is not a warning, not a threat, only a detailed letter from me to you.
Its not good bye or see you later its only an understanding.
Whats done is done and what was done I came to finish.
So get off this ride get off my street and dont return.
The alley is dark at night but you, my dear, you wont be able to take yourself out.
That alley is worse than horrible and not better than horrendous so keep pushing or step outside.
You do not want to learn another layer of me.
Aint that a bitch?
what you were trying not to do ended up happening anyway.
why do u think i care anymore?
what makes you think that I would?
If you only knew that sometimes as I speak your name all i want to do is barf in disgust.
I wonder sometimes how I let myself reach those lows.
How i put myself in a position I knew wouldnt work?
But guess what in the end I got what i want.
And in the end it wasnt you anymore who i wanted.
so maybe just maybe these past few months for you has been karma and the "better" you telling to keep up with me.
Sad thing is im happier without you than i was with you.
so leave it alone i say before you release a whole new fury you dont ever want to see.
It will leave you in fearing distaste.
The only thing you'll feel after you witness that side of me is a disgust that you can only hold and never let go. Its scarier to see a person you thought you knew in a whole new mirror.
Worse when that mirror breaks on you.
So let me go, leave me alone.
I dont care about you anymore.
Its not the same.
Dont ask why you know why.
You put yourself in that position.
I didnt.
So stop the pushing, stop thinking about what i think.
Because my opinion shouldnt matter to you.
the same way you dont matter to me.
it hurts to flip the script on you SIKE but you brought this one yourself.
Sincerely not yours, LoCa
PS Doesnt it hurt more that I dont love you anymore...
Doesnt it hurt to hear that maybe the only one that actually gave a fuck about you doesnt give a fuck?
so i left you for another guy...
i ended it all to be with another guy...
Best mistake ive done all year.
and yet i still dont regret...
thats all you ever wanted.
to be one of my regrets.
we cant all get what we want.
SORRY no not really im not...
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