being human our greatest fears

They say man's greatest fear is death. and love. My greatest fears surround both. The people who know this without me saying know me better than they think. They know who they are. Death and Love. To some people, it's the same. When you love, you die. Thats some people's philosophy. And to others it's the opposite. You're more alive when you're in love. And you're at your best when they love you back. I guess I'm torn. My love-hate for one person has caused me to survive the death of me. I'm moving on. Yes I am. I have no choice. I have to. I'm forcing myself to. I won't cry no more. I won't be happy anymore. I'll just be numb in the meantime. This summer is the end to whatever it could have been. After that, my love for him won't be the same. That's my greatest fear. If you could read between the lines and understand that what I'm saying is not just some words in a sentence on a screen but instead mean something totally different. You know me better than you think. And for those who are that slow... my words have always come true. It happened once, baby, what makes you think it won't happen again. I will be the death of me, I am my own downfall. In the end, you can think you saved me from myself. I'll allow you to think that. Hell, you even got permission. That is if you know me as well as I think you do. I'm doing me now. No more you. It hurts to say. But I've got to move on. Everything happened for a reason. So what if we're not meant to be... I tried... but I'm done "chasing", I'm done "pushing", if anything now I'm just pushing you away. Who knew big eyes could make you blind to the obvious things? I won't do it anymore. I'm listening to my heart. Fuck the intuition, screw the brain. I'm doing me and I'm listening to my pained hurting heart. It needs to heal, and that it will. After summer, it's a straight-out friendship, nothing more... nothing less. All I want is to at least have some piece of you... It hurts more to know that I can't have you all to me... But oh well, life's a bitch and so are we. That's what it is to be human. To pain, to feel, to hurt, to fear. And deep down inside all we have is our emotional states of mind. That's what our mind is for. Our heart holds the actual feelings. And our intuitions tell us to fear... Thats what it is to be human.