First off, I love music. I want to do several things this summer and going to a rock concert is one of them. Last year, I wanted to check out No Doubt or Paramore, or Breaking Benjamin or 3 Doors Down, but guess what? I didnt get a chance to.
I personally am one of those folks who can find a song to relate to me at that moment in any way, shape, or form. Its funny cause sometimes people find it truly annoying. Right now, I find myself rocking out to Santana. I love Santana's guitar work. Its so pretty. Especially when you put that with Chad Kroeger or Rob Thomas and you get songs like Into the Night or Smooth. OMG. I love it.
BTW, I am NOT only a rock fan. I do listen to ALL types of music. People call me crazy for it but I think I'm just well-rounded. Seriously.
I find myself listening to Jazz, soft rock, or rap. Maybe R&B, Pop (I grew up in the bubblegum era so dont hate me for loving Spice Girls), Salsa, Merengue... I love all kinds of music. I'm an avid listener of pianists. My ex-FWB-now-BFF is a pianist. I miss listening to him play piano at night. I used to fall asleep this way. It was so calming after a long day. I believe this is how I used to keep the stress at bay. This last semester at school, I got so stressed with work, school work and then my social life took a 180 and I cut off a lot of people this time around too. I got to feeling like most people in my life were there because they were interested in what wasnt their business. I tend to clam up when feeling vulnerable and thats what I did. I clammed up to dozens of folks. Good, I did though. I dont regret that. Which brings me to admitting that I've been on an Eminem tirade this whole semester.
I am not saying I didnt like him before but I am od'n now. Hes my favorite rapper but I used to listen to him only when I was feeling angry or agitated and mellow out to his verses or when a new album was put out and now its like an addiction. I cant stop. Sometimes it gets me to thinking about things I shouldnt think about and thats something I am really trying to keep my mindframe off of. Its hard to not think about the things you shouldnt. Especially when you dont want to.
Which brings me to my last point... My goal this summer, my MAIN goal, is to get my mind right. I need to get my mindset back to where it was because Im only getting myself sick... Not mentally but physically. Ive confessed to you, my fellow buddies and readers and bloggers, that Ive been depressed before. This time around its a physical depression and I refuse to find myself in that place again. So I leave you with this song... Only because I love it dearly.
Light up the Sky by Yellowcard
And its still so hard to be who you are but youve come this far with a broken heart
And its still so hard to be who you are But youve come this far and youre broken....
2 comments:
Hey I really like this post, I love music also, i listen to mostly rock but at times i listen to everything but country. A lot of the people i know from jhs and from loughlin didn't understand my music taste, especially in jhs when i first started listening to rock music, they kept saying that i was trying to act/be white, (a** hole!) The only person who really gets my style of music (beside you :-)) is my boyfriend, that's one of many things we have in common.
GREAT post!
LOVE Yellowcard!
And we should def hit up a concert together. Like seriously. I'm not even jokin :| *serious face*
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