When I was 10 years oold, I had a dream of being the next Selena, or, well, rather, JLo (either or. Theyre careers are similar!) I loved to dance (now I dont bother), if someone actually cared to hear me sing, lets just say Ive been told I could blow- NO PUN INTENDED! and I could act (is anyone up for melodrama?) Growing up, I used to love fashion design, but I never learned how to actually sew and make what I drew. My parents didnt approve of me chasing art throughout school. I loved to write, that's always been my consistent hobby, always writing SOMETHING! Whether it had been plays, novels, short stories, poems (though thats not really my thing...), spoken words, rhymes, etc.
So now I am at a crossroads. I am tired of school. I dont want to continue doing criminology. I love the subject but I dont love what I can do with it. I want to focus on juvenile justice and NYC doesnt really have a juvenile justice system. Cali and Fla have better juvenile justice systems, an actual system, but I dont want to move to Cali (for I know I will resurrect dead dreams and Fla, I'll be alone. Technically, I will have my aunt but thats it.) I am scared to not know what the future brings, or rather where i'll end up so here i am thinking about tomorrow and thinking about how next year I graduate and I dont have a clue what to do with myself.
So what to do with myself?
Graduate of Spring 2011: You are in the midst of a recession full of hiring freezes and you're ahead of folks by having your BA and experience in your field but youre still behind because you dont know what you want out of life.
I dont want much. I want to be able to live happily, comfortably, with my family in some random beautiful town, away from the calamities of the city. Thats not much to ask for, is it?
5 comments:
That's all many of us want. I was halfway through my degree when I realized I had been studying for the wrong thing. but then again, I had gotten so far, that I might as well finish. It is my goal as soon as I can get more used to this mommy thing and become more efficient with my times.
I wish you good luck and go ahead and finish. Many things can happen between now and your graduation.
I don't want to live in California, either. although it's beautiful, it is still overrated and overpriced!
I majored in broadcast journalism. I got out of school and found my way to public relations which eventually led me where I am now...tech support. An odd path but I'm proof it doesn't really matter what you major in. The fact that you have a degree is all that really matters, especially once you get that first professional job on your resume.
Hang in there. I actually wish I had gone into criminal justice. It seems so interesting!
U.....R.....DA SHYT...PERIOD
It's not much to ask for, but I'm learning now that life doesn't always turn out as neat and tidy as you'd hope! As you go along, you sort of trade in one stressful situation for another. You just have to learn to embrace life and make the most of it in the end.
Go with your gut. Things turn out the way they're supposed to, just not always where you THINK they will--ha ha! Good luck!!
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